broken fam

Is it true fams are supposed to be happily ever after? Tell me because ive been wondering about this since day 1. The fights, quarrels, screams & shouts. Im afraid till now. Closing my eyes and sit in the corner to just, endure it, swallow it as if nothing happened. Nothing occurred that day. Im too afraid, to embarrassed to tell anyone about this shit ive gone thru. Because id have heard stories how wonderful ones fam was, and found out i was alone. I guess this is it. This is my destiny. I hated them for being like this all the time. i hated them for letting me be the adult one, for getting me to become mature when i was just 12. i hated everything i hated it so bad. why cant i be a child when i was a child and be a teenager when i was a teenager. is it because you couldnt? is it becuase u wanted me to feel how you felt back then? tell me. look at my bloody face and tell me dad. im struggling to be the best most perfect daughter you could only have but you kept on looking at my flaws, my mistakes. Youve been hurt a lot, by mom, by everyone that had hurted you, by me. But dad im your daughter, not your dad's son. forgive me as i have hated you so much